So there may or may not have been a total break down today. Between the stress of APs, the end of the 5 week, being absent for two days, work, dance, WISE, and lack of sleep, I was 100% completely and utterly overwhelmed. It was not pretty. There was tears and hyperventilation and feeling like I was going to rip my hair out. Definitely not good. But while I still don't feel like anything was resolved and I still have too much on my plate, I think that just crying made my body feel physically better. It released some of the tension that I have just been building up and has been waiting to be gotten rid of. I've learned over the whole process of this journey, that sometimes crying and being in that depressed state is EXACTLY what you need. It can take so much effort and energy to be happy and feeling okay, that it is sometimes best just to let yourself have a bad day. I have definitely had my share of them. I think that by letting myself have those days where you never leave bed or curl up and feel miserable, you get it out of your system and can move on and try to focus on getting better the next day. It's definitely okay to cry.
This song is the one that I listen to on repeat, and by repeat I mean for like 4 hours at a time, when I am having one of those days. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=StFfXP4eAgU
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